from yesterday

I know that if I really got how much God loves me I would live differently.

My life would look different if I was better at receiving that love.

And so, I wonder - how would life look? 'Cause I want to start living it.

So far, I get that I would give more.

More of myself, more of my time, even more of my money.

That's a start.

from some time in October, 1996

Autumn

And I love the smell of the wind

and rain in the warm air.

Or the smell of the cold like winter.

I am happy in my solitude

Nothing to hinder the sound of leaves to my ears.

Nothing to steal the mist from my face.

And though there are no stars

darkness doesn’t surround me.

His light is with me always.

I am humbled by the power that surrounds me.

The wind the cold and the rain.